One.Step.At.A.Time

February 24, 2013,

I told you I'd give you an update, so, here it is! As you can probably already guess from my tone the party went amazingly. There were some 'BLEH' moments but overall way better than I had expected. I mean I never though I would be able to go to a party knowing only the host and able to mingle around and make conversation with new people. I wouldn't call myself a pro but I'm definetly improving and I'm proud of myself. As the tittle says, I'm doing it One. Step. At. A. Time :)

Here is a list of websites that kind of helped me a bit when I was freaking out before hand. For people like me: Introverted, Shy, and who thinks they're Socially Awkward- please have a look. I want you to know that everything is in your head. Just have good thoughts about how you want things to turn out and things will go fine. Believe me they will.

I'm not gonna blabber anymore because you have the sites.

1) http://www.acquired-tastes.com/2011/08/making-conversation-5-easy-tips-for.html

2) http://www.wikihow.com/Avoid-Being-Socially-Awkward

3) http://www.succeedsocially.com/howtomingleatparties

That should do the trick. Happy Socializing!

Will be back soon,
S.

My Anxieties :/

February 24, 2013

So, remember I told you of a friend's birthday party in the previous post? Well. I had decided to chicken out and not go. I told her on Facebook but she totally insisted that I come. I kind of gave her my word and I'm now going to a party where I know no body but the host.

Oh. My. God. I am having social anxieties. There is basically going to be two groups of people who don't know each other and then there is me. Do I have a problem for feeling this way? Probably not. This is daunting for most people out there. For me, however, this is crucial. This is because I NEED to improve my social skills.

I am going to try and make myself feel better now. What is the worst that can happen? If things don't go smoothly I can always leave early right? Also, why am I afraid of people's judgment? As it is, I don't know anybody there except the host and maybe the hosts parents who might turn up. I just have to be myself.

Breathe. Go for it with a positive attitude! I am going to have a GREAT time mingling with new and interesting people.

I'll give you an update after the party. Alright?

Will be back soon,
S.

The Power (Weakness?) of Introverts

February 21, 2013

I would like to share this video of 'The Power of Introvert'. I watched this video quite a while ago actually. But a conversation I had with my sister just now made me sad all of a sudden as it was about how I am such an 'Introvert' and how that's something of a weakness. I actually feel that way- you know? So I watched the video again.



I kind of feel better now. Oh, and on Sunday, there is a birthday party I'm invited to. It's an old friend's. I'm still contemplating whether I should go or now. I feel I should because I need to socialize more. But then again there's going to be lots of people I don't know. I'll let you know.

Also, I just told my sister and mum of this so-called-blog I have which I'm not showing them. They totally flipped and over reacted. I mean, why can't a person have their privacy? I don't really mind if people half way across the world read this but I do mind if the person next door does. Does this make sense?

Will be back soon,
S.

The Biggest Loser

February 20, 2013

This is going to be a quick post about my new resolution: to lose weight through healthy eating and exercise. Yup, you heard right. Even though I failed miserably the last time I tried, there was one- 3 years ago, that I was successful and became skinny. And then 'Food' and 'Laziness' happened and I bloated and bloated and bloated. I am now a hippo. Yay? Anyways, its high time I do something about my weight issue now. I promise, this time its going to work.

My problem you see, is not only losing weight for beauty purposes- although that is a big big factor! But my problem is that my feet can't support heavy weight so if I don't lose weight now, when I grow old, I won't be able to walk. Gasps!

So, this is the 'rules' that I have to follow:

1) Exercise at least 3 times a week.
- For example, run on the treadmill for 30 minutes

2) Take packed lunch and fruits to school to avoid eating junk food.

3) Try to stop eating unhealthy snacks between meals

4) Drink lots and lots of water

That is what I am going to try and do first. Later, I can add more to the list.

Will be back soon,
S.

JA Stem Innovation

February 20, 2013

Today is the JA Stem Innovation Camp Competition that I was selected to take part in. This competition was held in Triam Udom's Alumni Centre and is sponsored by Blackberry. Before I tell you more about this particular competition, I'm going to fast-forward back 3-4 months before, ok? Laughs. Why am I asking you? You don't really have a choice.

There is this program called Junior Achievement Thailand. It has numerous programs and workshops for schools to take part in. The first program introduced to my school was JA Banks in Action which was sponsored by Bangkok Bank. I joined it as an ECA and happen to be on the winning team in my school. How that happened is kind of a funny story because it was a co-incidence. Anyways, as a result of this glorious win, a group of 4 students including me, were sent to compete with other schools at Bangkok Bank's headquarter. We had to make a presentation regarding an answer to a question (I forgot what I said but I remember I made a fool out of myself) as well as play a simulation game regarding interest rates.

So, because of our stupidity of deciding not to prepare for this competition we outright lost the game. Yay. Laughs.

Okay, back to today's competition.

There were around 8 people from my school. The competition started at 8 am and lasted until 9 pm. I know right?! That's insane! I was like so tired. Anyways, when we first got there, we did ice-breaking activities. It was extremely stupid and ridiculous. I'll give you one example: singing 'Hello hello hello...how are you too? ...and you and you and you' while doing weird motions towards random strangers. MATURITY anybody?!

Laughs.

The intellectually stimulating part, never the less, came later. We were put into groups of 6 with students from other schools and had to make a power point presentation and business concepts regarding 'How can the Ministry of Education partner up with Blackberry (They're the sponsors) to encourage students to take STEM subjects (Science, Technology, Engineering, Math)'. After the presentation, we were interviewed by a panel of judges based on our concept.

What else was there? Well, I got to know some people: a couple students from TCIS, one from Saint Joseph Bangna, as well as an Indian-Sikh student from RIS. And there was food! Breakfast, Coffee, Lunch, and Dinner! But the food wasn't that great though.

Okay. The most important information saved for the last. The winning team gets a Blackberry.

I CURRENTLY DON'T HAVE A BLACKBERRY!

This honestly sucks. It's not like I want the phone, I just want the certificate for my CV! Plus the judges were saying stuff like 'Everybody here is a winner', 'It was a tough decision', 'We were impressed by ALL groups', and other cliche sayings. It just made me more frustrated!

Oh well, at least I will have the certificate of participation which will be handed out to me in my school's assembly. And you know what they say: It doesn't matter if you win or lose. All that matters is that you participate.

Will be back soon,
S.

Lurking around "The Mall"

February 19, 2013

I am currently siting in the Food Court of a mall near my school. This has become like a usual routine for me while my sister has ECAs at school. (That's Extra Curricular Activities by the way). I can't explain just how annoying and awkward this feels. I'm just sitting at either Food Court, McDonalds, Starbucks, or walking around like an idiot wasting money on useless things.

Yet every time I vow to myself that I won't come here alone it just doesn't seem to take effect. I guess because lately my sister has gone into FULL SPORTS MODE.

Anyways, I am not complaining. I actually did do quite a bit of work in the library today while waiting and just decided to come and wait here for a bit. My mum is late today as well. Again, I am not complaining. It's part of life isn't it?

Gosh. What has gotten into me right now?

So, while waiting, I decided to blog. It has become like a weird addiction now. When I first started, I never thought I would enjoy it this much. The more I post, the more likely someone I know will read this. And that scares me. It really does. But I guess sometimes you cant help it. Especially me, I can't let what people think affect me that much.

Something has really gotten into me, hasn't it? (Chuckles)

Will be back soon,
S.

Two faced people & Exams

February 18, 2013

This is going to be short and sweet.

Do you know people who act like your friends and hang out with you when they have no body else? Then when their friends are around they just totally forget about you and even ignore you on purpose? And when you ask them to hang out with you, say, sit with you, they give you an effed up look? Well. I feel hate such two faced people.

Okay that was defiantly short but not sweet. On a more positive note, this is like a reminder to myself. A reminder to not rely on people as much and not to care as much. I know its easier said than done but I shall try.

Since I'm already in the mood now, I'll do a little update. I'm dropping Piano and Mandarin Classes for a while to give me more time to revise for my AS Exams. I need to do well this time and I promise to study- especially the Exam Timetable is crazy this year! It makes all my exams over within a week of like a 2 month session! Like seriously?

Economics	Math	History
13th May	7th May	23rd May
21st May	22nd May

I know the table looks hideous, but well, the whole exam is hideous- so yeah. Actually, it's hideous because I'm horrible at computers. I think I already mentioned that, right?

Will be back soon,

S.