I just applied to uni!

December 12th, 2013

The tittle is pretty self explanatory. I applied to the following universities for Poltics/ International Relations like 3 days ago, and now I'm just waiting for the responses. 

1. LSE

2. Warwick 

3. Bath

4. York 

5. Exeter 

Now I just got to wait. And do brilliantly on my mocks and final exams.

Will be back soon,

S.

Trinity Grade 7!

26th November, 2013

I just took my Trinity Grade 7 today! And boy, I am so going to fail. Like I messed up my pieces so bad! I am sure I could have done better because exam pressure always gets the best of me..

I know I always freak out after any exam I take but always end up with a decent mark. This time though, I am sure I did horribly. The best case scenario is that I will get a low pass. But then again, let's be optimistic and say that I have a fair chance at passing because for the other grades I've always got Merits.

Urgh. As you can see...this waiting period of not knowing annoys the hell out of me.  I will know my results in like a week or so.

 But you know wat, assuming I do fail, it is not the end of the world. I haven't been dedicating much time to piano anyways because I have my A Levels to study for as well. It's not like I'm taking music seriously anyways.

I think I should just stop talking/ typing / thinking about piano. I'll just sit outside here at the gazebo (long story...I don't have the house keys and have to wait for my dad to get home). 

Will be back soon, 

S.

The UK, school, exam, uni stuff....BLAH

8th November, 2013 

Yes, I know last time I said I will post an update on Cardiff and ironic enough, this time I am saying I will post an update on my recent trip to the UK ! (I know right ?! I can't believe it actually happened) 

Anyways, there has been ALOT going on right now in terms of school and university. Again, ironic enough this has been the focus of my last post as well. 

But here is the update: 

Nottingham Malaysia is my backup- which is totally fine because it is a more than alright place. The applications haven't opened yet but I will apply as soon as they open.

As for the UK, I am applying to,

1. LSE

2. York (Top choice)

3. Durham

4. Warwick

5. Not sure yet (possibly Exeter)

I need to work my butt off to get all As now because I really want to get the 30% tuition fees reduction at York. 

My mocks are coming up. I have to do like amazing in that. As for personal statement, it's pretty much done and dusted but on Friday Novemeber 15th, I am going to a workshop organized by BritEdu to get it reviewed. Don't know how useful that is going to be but hey there is no harm right ?

I am now currently at the dentist. My appointment has been pending for a while now. But, never the less, I am here. I really hope I get to take my braces out soon though because I am beginning to get really sick of them.

Oh and my piano Grade 7 exams are coming up as well on 26th Novemeber. If I manage to get a good pass, I am going to be so proud of myself because I honesty did not put in the work ! No, but on a serious note from next week onwards I am going to go to piano every day. 

Apart from that, well there is a fair at Mueng Thong Thani where my mum is exhibiting her bedsheets. It is going pretty well and I am confident it can do even better as it has potential. 

Oh well. And there is me. Still waiting for the stupid denist appointment. Anyways, do watch out for my post on my UK trip and Cardiff thingi.

Will be back soon, 

S.

I haven't disapeared! Just checking in!

September 29, 2013

I know its been a while since I last posted, and for that, I apologize. (Not that anybody even reads my posts, but whatever). What is up with me ? Well...A lot. I don't even know where to begin. The last time I checked in, I was preparing to go to Cardiff. And now, its been like a few weeks since I am back. I wanted to blog while I was there but for some reason I ended up not doing so. But, I am determined not to let this blog die that is why I'm posting now even though I have so many things on my mind at the moment.

I will post an update of Cardiff soon enough. Don't worry. (Again, not that anybody even reads my posts). As for right now, all I can think about is my university applications. Oh wait. Did I tell you about my A level grades? I don't think I did. I got an A for History, A for Economics, and uhm..a B for Maths. But I hope to turn the B into an A though. Anyways, I am currently writing my personal statement for UCAS, and when UNMC applications open, I shall apply there as well.

When I say all I can think about is universities, I mean that. Like literally, it sucks not knowing where I am going to end up you know. I am one person that does not know how to 'take it easy' and 'go with the flow'. If something is on my mind, I become obsessed with it. I know that's a bad habit, but what can I do?

The universities I want to go to changes everyday, and I have yet to decide on the 5 choices for UCAS. In the mean time, I have to work my butt of for A2s. My motivation is the uni videos I have been watching lately! Laughs.

Will be back soon,
S.

Letter to my 34 year old self! (Dont read before that)

July 25th, 2013

Hello 34 year old Simran! I hope life is going well for you at this moment. I had great expectations for you, my friend. But, no pressure if you don't live up to your 17 year old self's maybe unrealistic expectations! Its good to have goals and ambitions, ultimately however, that is not how you measure 'happiness'. Let me explain, today I saw this quote:

"When you are in your final days of life, what will you want? Will you hug that college degree in the wallnut frame? Will you ask to be carried to the garrage so you can sit in your car? Will you find comfort in reading your financial statement? Of course not. What will matter then will be people. If relationships will matter most then, shouldn't they matter most now?" - Max Lucado.

This quote made me realize something today so let me make sure that you don't forget this. The most important thing in life should be relationships and not material things. (Although all that is an added bonus. Winks.)

Okay, enough of all that philosiphy. Let's,  however, see what your 17 year old self  imagined her 34 year old self to be.

By now I expected you to be married and maybe even have a child. Also, you should have a job or have had a job working in the UN, embassies, or any other kind of NGOs. You should have had travelled. And I mean travelled ALOT. Like go on all sorts of expeditions you've ever wanted to do including a road trip adventure spanning more than a handfull of countries- basically having "lived your life" like there is no tommorow.

This blog of mine, I humbly pass on to you, and I do hope you have continued to write. Even though I hope for you to have a better self esteem, confidence, and become slightly more extroverted than myself: I do hope you still find solace in those moments of solitude like I do. Writing is like an outlet for me and I truly wish for it to blossom into something similar for you.

You know, 34 year old Simran, if this letter was written like a couple of years back, it would have been entirely different. It would contain a list of to do things for you to check off after you have achieved it. But my attitude has changed now. There is no check list. Instead, there is a blank space. Fill it in with your imagination, What matters most to you? Go after it. Hold on to it. And remember, cherish every moment of your life.

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Lots of encouragement, support, sympathy, pity, and most of all : love, unconditional love from your bestest friend,

Yourself.

Cloud Storage...

July 29th, 2013

I have finally decided to back up ALL my pictures and store them online; in other words, on cloud. I have been meaning to do it for a really long time but A) I couldn't be bothered to B) Did not feel the need to C) Wasn't quite sure how to do it.

But now that my iPhone is literally going to explode because its so full, I have decided: Now its time.

I'm using Dropbox and Media Share for this process. I've downloaded Dropbox in my iPhone and it automatically uploads the pictures in my camera roll on to cloud. Once in cloud, I can extract it online or on my desktop. Now because Dropbox only gives me 5 GB free space, and since I'm a cheapo and couldnt be bothered to pay extra money for more space, I came up with another solution to this. From my desktop, I can easily drag the pictures onto my Media Share account. And Viola. This works for me because alothough Dropbox is more convinient, Media Share gives up to 50 GB free space.

So yeah. Smart Right? Although its really annoying! Urgh. I should have done this before. Because now I have 3000 + pics and its taking forever. I have to make sure I do it all before I go to Cardiff so that I have enough memory on my phone to take loads and loads of pics.

Will be back soon,
S.

Cardiff....here I come !

July 24th, 2013

If you scroll (is that the appropriate word?) down a couple of posts, you'll find one post tittled 'British Council'. Go ahead and read it if you havent already. Go ahead, I'm not going anywhere!

Okay..So it turns out, the British Council are my new besties! I had seriously lost all hope of getting to go to Cardiff and I had actually already come to terms with that. Then, all of a sudden I got an email from British Council with the confirmed dates and an appointment on Tuesday. So, I went with all the documents I needed. It was really hectic getting everything I needed especially since I got the info of what is needed like literally an hour before the appointment!

Anyways, at the British Council, I had to fill in the Cardiff Summer School application form, the Visa application form (thats a story for another time), as well as recieved all the timetables and pre-arrival guide. Now, on Friday I have to go submit all the documents at the British Embassy. It really hectic because the schedule is so tight. I can't really explain in words but I'll try my best.

I have to now contact my school to get a supporting letter, go get the letter from British Council on the same day I have to go to the British Embassy, book and pay ticket- which by the way is one day early since the tickets are full, co-ordinate with the British Council and let them know of my problem as now I'm arriving one day early and accomadation and aiprort pick up may be an issue, and on top of that all the shopping that needs to be done!

I actually have a list on my laptop which makes me look like a control freak I know, but I cant help it!

Lets just hope this time the British Council wont cancel on me! Laughs. They wont.

Will be back soon,
S.

China Witness

July 14, 2013

I went to Chatujak Market on Saturday and let's just say I am the markets biggest fans! Apart from all the clothes, bag, shoes, and other goody good stuff, there are also second hand books there. 

I bought 2 books, one of them being called China Witness. And do you know what's wierd to me ? The authors name is Xinran (bare in mind that X is pronounced as S). And what makes it even more wierd is that this book is something I could see myself writing in the future. The author basically piles up years of interview of old people in China to record history thought their eyes and more importantly sufferings so that the future generation can understand what had to be sacrificed for them. 

Anyways, I briefly had the idea to write something similar but the topic being about Indians in Thailand. Because there are a few old people I have in mind that have some worth documenting stories. This project  is not like a DIY project (My sis and I have been obbsessed with them) that you can just dive into. It takes a lot of time and dedication. I bet this won't work out. But, maybe something similar in the near future will ? 

Will be back soon,

S.

Life lesson for me (Yet again.)

July 11, 2013

So there is this girl whom I do work experience with. She is normally a very nice, friendly, and straight forward person. At times though, she goes into these "wierd" moods where she won't talk much and be in a pissed off mood. I've experienced it firsthand today. Like seriously wtf?! 

But you know what, I'm not going to care  about it. I'm going to take this as a learning experience. In life, there are going to be times where I have to face such people. Or worse, be on my own. I have to learn to deal with it. You know what they say: just don't give a damn. 

Will be back soon, 

S.

Sick of being Sick :/

July 9th, 2013

Its a cliche, I know. But frankly right now that sums up exactly how I feel. Just when things at my internship was going better (I moved to another branch in the same soi with more people and more opportunity to help out- still photocopying, but yeah) I had to fall sick.

 It's so annoying because the thing with me is that my reaction is a 1000x more than my actual condition. So even a light fever for me is like hell. I swear that day I was feeling feverish and had to walk all the way from the office to the BTS station. I don't know how I made it that day. At home, I felt I was half dead!

But, thanks to two days of rest (yes, bunking work as my parents odered - which shows how severe my condition seemed), loads of rest, and plenty of herbs at my disposal, I am all better now.

Speaking of herbs, I would never admit it, but I'm thankful my family has the wisdom. I don't remember the last time I've been in a hospital and that's a good thing because eating a lot of modern medicine is bad.

When I go off to university there will be a whole container of herbs that come with me.

Will be back soon,

S.

Super Rich Internship

2 July, 2013

As the tittle suggests, I have now started my internship at Super Rich 1965 Money Exchange as the "Executive Photocopying Co - Assistant and Procastinator". And as my tone suggests, which by the way is sarcastic as hell, I am absolutely hating it here. Don't get me wrong. I am not some stuck up or spoilt daddy's girl who can't stand a day of hardwork. In fact, it's the opposite: there is NO friggin work for me to do and that's why I am bored. 

Let me explain myself a little more clear here. There are three branches of this company; all of which are located in the same soi. The two other fellow class/school mates that are joining this internship are stationed in relatively busy branches. I on the other hand am currently sitting in an empty office listening to random music blaring from the computer beside this lady (okay, she's pretty friendly but that's not the point). Occasionally, when there are customers I still don't get to do anything. Like literally I just sit here with my mobile phone. Urgh. This is my second day so you can't say I haven't tried. The firs day I put a lot more effort but still nothing has changed.

Oh well, I better get back to doing nothing and acting like I care. 

Will be back soon, 

S.

British Council

17 June, 2013

Remember I mentioned about the Inspire Scholarship I won? Okay, I'll just explain briefly now. Last year around August, I submitted an essay to the British Council and ended up winning! Awesome right?! Anyways, my prize was a 2 week scholarship to Cardiff Sixth Form College scheduled in Summer 2013. And as you can see from the date above, it is now Summer 2013. But. But I havent recived a confirmation from the British Council yet. All they have done is reassure me when I call them that, 'Yes, we will get back to you' or 'It will happen sometime in August'. It is annoying as hell because A) I need to plan out my Summer schedule. If this isn't happening I can make other arangments. B) I really want to go.

The main issue however is that I've already told people about it and I'm afraid I will loose face. Immature much?! I know.

So, the point of this post is that I am pissed of at the British Council. What makes matter worse is that since last year, there have been 4 replacements of the person in charge of the Inspire Scholarship. Everytime you talk to a new person, you have to start all over again.

I really hope this happens sometime in August. I shall visualize it. Laughs. No, seriously, I shall.

Will be back soon,
S.

My lip is SWOLEN!

12 June, 2013

Okay. So I woke up early this morning as I'm traveling to Phnom Penh, Cambodia today. I went to the toilet, looked in the mirror, and boom: what do I see ? A SWOLEN LIP. I am not kidding right now. It's literally swollen and I feel like the worlds biggest idiot sitting here at the gate of Bangkok Airways. For memories sake, it's D5. 

Anyways, this isn't the first time this has happened. I remember a few years back, I think 5, my lips were swollen overnight in Chiangmai. It was because I was bitten by some insect and subsided in a while.The one I have now isn't as bad but I'm still upset about it.

I've tried ice, balm, and what not but nothing seems to work. I plan on taking an anti-allergy pill as soon as I have drinking water. And you know what they say: time heals all.

Let's hope that it gets better during the 1 hour ish flight though because :

A) I want to look nice in photos 

B) I don't want to meet my moms customers/clients/colleagues/ who-ever-the-hell-she-meets like this

C) I want to look like a sane person and I'm afraid that's not possible with retarded lips

Please universe. 

Will be back soon, 

S.

Don't be too quick to judge!

June 2nd, 2013

Hello guys. So today I was with my family at this outdoor community mall kind of thing, and guess what? I met a long lost friend of mine! Laughs. Okay, maybe that's just an exaggeration. But it has been a year, exactly a year, since I met her. It wasn't planned as we just kind of bumped into each other.

Anyways, the point of this post will soon be clear. At first, I honestly thought she had changed and no longer wanted to associate with me- or something along those lines. When I met her though, she talked nicely to me and it was so great to catch up. This made me realize that sometimes we are too soon to judge people when the truth is they are not at all the way they seem.

Will be back soon,
S.

Phnom Penh!

May 31, 2013

Okay. Relax. I currently have really bad period pains but that's not what I'm here to talk about.

I'm going to Cambodia! I'm not sure if I mentioned this yet but my mom has to go to Phnom Penh for work to attend some jewelry fair and I'm just going to tag along. I'm pretty excited to go there because it's always exciting to go to new countries.

With this trip, I'm going to take advantage of the new blog I set up called "Your Travel Guru". I'll be providing reviews of the places I go to there and general comments about the experience. I know this blog of mine is pretty mundane and boring but hopefully the other one will attract more readers.

Anyways, the trip is on 12-15 June. Still a long time but I'm looking forward to it nonetheless.

Will be back soon,
S.

Nothingness....blah!

28 May, 2013

You know that feeling after a stressful day/week/month where all you want to do is nothing ? And then you do get to do nothing and it feels wonderful. And then you to back to whatever you were doing previously and start to miss doing nothing ? Well, let's just say that's how it's supposed to be. Because I, my friend, have had the privilege (or fate) to have to experience a staggering 5 days of nothingness and a further 90 days or so of potential nothingness. Do you even get what my point is here? I've had enough. This waking up at noon, not showering, going on YouTube binges, eating spree, DIY projects maniac, and so on, is no longer my idea of fun.

Anyways I'm not going to complain no more because that's something losers do. I'm going to take matters into my own hand. Starting from June onwards, I'm going to practice piano since my exam is in October. I'm also going to restart mandarin classes and hopefully prepare for HSK Level 4 as soon as I'm ready for it. I plan to schedule and IELTS exam soon and do practice papers before hand because I might need them when I'm applying to universities this September. Moreover, I can prepare for AS English Language which I planned to take during the October/November session as well as work on my personal statement. Oh Wow. That's impressive. See, you can always be productive if you want to ? Now the question is, can I actually accomplish this?

Whatever. There is also the Cardiff Sixth Form College scholarship thing that I won! Hopefully it will actually take place in August like British Council said it would. I'm really excited for this because it's the first time I'll be traveling outside of Asia (that is if you count Australia as Asia). But more importantly, I'll be traveling alone. Like alone alone. I would learn so much from this experience, create memories that will last a life time, and I'm really looking forward to it.

Besides this, in July my family and I are planning a trip to Phuket. How can it feel like Summer if you don't get to go the the beach right? That should be fun. Beach! Sun!

Ah, plus I found out today that my cousin, more precisely uncle who is my age, is coming from India soon. And maybe also another cousin from Malaysia. So yeah.

That's it for now. I've for more important things to be doing now. Yeah, like procrastinate in school.

Will be back soon,
S.

Hello Again.

26 May, 2013

Hello again people. It's been forever. I'm aware of that. Frankly, I haven't had the time for it with all the exams and everything. Well actually it's more like this, I feel guilty blogging during exam times even though I ain't studying. Anyways enough with the exam talks, I'm sick of them!

So, what else has been going on ? I've been helping my sister start her YouTube Vlogs. After persuading her for like months she finally agreed to it. Isn't hat awesome ? Except our camera (basically the IMAC) and sound system sucks real bad. And I guess that puts off most potential viewers. Nevertheless, it's a start. I'm the Blogger and she's the Vlogger. Happy family. Laughs.

Oh and I've also tidied my room, closet, and make-up/jewelry area. I've been neglecting it lately so it feels kind of good to be organized again. This is what I usually do, make it super neat and the. after a while it becomes a mess again. The cycle then continues.

This year, I've also made a decision not to go to Prom. Because frankly prom is overrated and I can't be bothered to get all dressed up and pay a 1000-ish bucks (that's in baht by the way which is like 30-ish dollars). So, no Prom for me this year. I'll go next year though because it's senior year. Oh my god. SENIOR YEAR! I just had like a mini heart attack over here. Okay so my high school life was not like how it is in the movies, but still, it still feels kind of good I guess.

What else ? Hmm. There is this community service trip to Khao Yai coming along. The prefect team organized it. We're going to be visiting a local school/orphanage to donate some stuff and teach them English. So yeah, tht should be a fun experience.

Anyways enough for today. I'll probably be blogging a lot now because I have around 3 months holiday before school starts.

Will be back soon,
S.

Nottingham vs Monash

April 19, 2013

Oh hello people! It's been sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo long since I last blogged. I know. I'm sorry. Its not like I've been busy or anything.Its just that I've been supposed to study for my exams which are like in 2 weeks and so writing a blog seems like procastination to me. Wierd, I know. Anyways, there are like so many things I want to blog about that I just dont know where to begin.

I guess I shall begin with my trip to Malaysia- specifically Universities. I went on the 6th of April with my family (and cousin, but she's like family too) to see University of Nottingham Malaysia Campus.I also went to see Monash Sunway Campus. There are like so many international univerisities in Malaysia because the government wants to establish the country as an educational hub. For me, however, unfortunately only these two mentioned above have courses in Social Science, namely, International Relations. Yups, I changed my mind again on my major. I'll talk about that later though.

So basically, I'm going to compare these two universities so that prospective students will have a better idea from a third party and non biased source.

Firstly, Nottingham is a UK university and Monash is an Australian based one. I don't know which system is better. I think it depends on the individual as a person. For me though, I think a UK university is better since I've been in a Britished Pattern school since childhood.

Secondly, Nottingham is located in Seminyih. Its a tiny village in the middle of nowhere.You've got to take a train from KL Central to Kajang which takes around 30 minutes. Then there is a shuttle bus to the university which takes around 10 minutes as its located 9 km from the station on top of a hill. When I say this, I dont mean its a bad thing though. There are plenty of trees and the campus is beautiful. If it was a bit cooler, it would seem like you're in the UK. Monash, on the other hand, is located in Sunway right next to a shopping mall and theme park. Its right in the heart of the city, there are lots of things to do and you'll never get bored. Again, it depends on the individual but I prefer being away from the city. Its much more laid back you know. Students in Nottingham walking around in shorts and flipflops while in Monash they're all dressed up- these kinds of stuff.

Lastly, standards. Judgding from the entry requirements I can say that Nottingham has a higher standard than Monash. To do the same course, which is Social Science, I would need ABB for Nottigham but only CCC for Monash.

I guess you can probably guess that I would rather go to Nottingham. The next option for me is Monash though. Oh wait, I forgot to mention. If I get AAA I would get a 25% scholarship worth about 100,000 baht automatically at both the universities. Awesome right? I'm going to try my best.

Will be back soon,
S.

My Shoe broke! Ah.

March 28, 2013

So, throughout the glorious 17 years of my life, I've thought about solutions to numerous possible problems that may arise in certain situations. But, in those glorious 17 years I've never ever thought about one that happened to me today. Ironic much?

Okay, before you start scratching your head in confusion let me just tell you: MY SHOE EFFIN BROKE! No, I'm not being a bitch, MY SHOE LITERALLY BROKE INTO HALF WHILE I WAS WALKING ON THE STREETS!

I honestly don't know what to say or do right now. I managed to trudge my way to the mall which luckily was just 200 meters ish away. I'm currently sitting in McDonalds with a glass of coffee float and blogging away about my fate. I mean, I had planned to go buy some school supplies I needed and then cross over to the other side to wait for my dad who's coming to pick me up at 3.30.

Curse my luck. But then again, at least I made it alive to the mall. Laughs. Oh positivity, thy knows no boundaries! (Okay. Where did that come from? Seriously.)

Will be back soon,
S.

I pierced my nose!

March 25, 2013

I haven't blogged in a while. I just don't know what to blog I guess. Oh wait..let me tell you about my nose piercing. So, I recently got my nose pierced. I've been wanting it for a while now but never really got a chance to. I really like how it looks, but sadly, good things come alongside bad things. Don't worry- I'm not in depressed mode..Its just a fact of life.

Okay, first things first.

1. Does getting a nose piercing hurt ?
This is a really stupid question because you are getting a hole in the middle of your nose using a needle! Of course it's going to hurt...but it's nothing you can't bear I promise. It feels like an ant bite and it's literally over before you can say "ouch".

My tip for you guys is don't watch videos of people getting their nose pierced on YouTube because you will just be freaked out. Trust me, it doesn't hurt as much as it looks. Secondly, when you are getting the piercing close your eyes and put on some happy music on your iPod- this will block out all the pain.

If you really want it, just go ahead and get it. Pain wise, it honestly isn't that bad. I had a smile on my face afterwards.

2. Should you get it with a needle or gun.
Needle. I can't stress this enough. Just get it don't with a needle because piercing guns can damage your cartilage and cause more problems in the future.

3. What to do for the after care?
The first and foremost rule is "DO NOT TOUCH PROD OR PLAY your piercing with dirty hands". I think the rule is pretty straight forward. If you do so, this may increase the chances for inflation.

Now, you must understand that it is extremely important to clean your nose piercing properly. You should do so at least twice a day. You should NOT use alcohol or hydrogen peroxide. Instead, you can use a saline solution or alternatively mix water with sea salt. All you gotta do is dab a little bit of the solution on a Q-tip and rub it on your nose piercing. You can clean both inside and outside but remember never to use the same Q-tip for both sides. Moreover, it is bear if you let it air dry rather than wipe it dry. Also, after you clean it, you should twist the piercing around so that your skin doesn't heal around the piercing.

4. I got a bump next to the piecing. What do I do?
Calm down. This is completely normal.I got it too, actually. What I did and it worked perfectly for me was to mix turmeric and coconut oil to make a paste. Dab it on your piercing and leave it there overnight. In about 2-3 days my bump disappeared completely.

But sometimes the problem is more serious than the normal bump. In case of an infection, please go see the doctor. Do not attempt to search the Internet for home remedies because an infection is serious and you're best off seeking professional advice.

5. When can I change me nose stud?
Leave the stud for about 4-5 months just to make sure it won't close, then you can change it. Trust me, nose piercing closes very fast. Mine did because the first time the piercing fell off at night. I then had to get it done again but this time with an L shaped stud (as opposed to straight) to make sure the stud will stay. I'm leaving it in for as long as I can.

That's basically it, my advice to you.If you have any questions feel free to ask them in the comment section below.

Will be back soon,
S.

Words of Wisdom

March 8, 2013

A little talk with my dad has left me with full of wisdom. So, I thought I'd share them here.

First of all, the main cause for depression amongst people is that their expectations don't meet their achievement. This I found to be so true because it can be applied to almost any situation. For instance, maybe you're expectation is to be super rich and successful but your achievement is a monthly salary of, say, 50,000 Baht. Or how about if your expectation is to have a very active social life but your reality is no where near that?

How to over come this depression ? Simple. Lower down your expectations. I'm not saying to not have hope. I'm just saying don't get carried away with you hope.

Basically: be satisfied and know that happiness lies in your hands. Do whatever you want, but remember to be happy !

I'm not sure if my advice even makes logical sense, but, whatever. To me, at that moment, it did.

Will be back soon,
S.

Catching Up.......

March 6, 2013

It's been a while since I updated. I guess its because I have 2 English Essays and 1 History Essay to do that I didn't have time to blog. LAUGHS. No, I spent time watching pretty little liars, 90210, lying game, the new normal, switched at birth,etc- you get the point.

Anyways, yesterday I met up with 2 old friends of mine. I've known them since 2nd Grade and haven't met them in like 8 years- can you believe it? One of them is actually living in France now. It felt good catching up with them. I was able to talk to them and we reconnected. It's a bummer though because A said will probably come back to Thailand in a year or so while I don't want to meet J alone!

Oh and by the way, I signed myself up for the swimming gala today. Well, forced to by my group because there aren't enough Senior Girls. That's the downside of a small school! But I plan to skip anyways though. I do that every year and for every sporting event.

Whatever. Forget the sports. Tomorrow is the bake sale in school. YUMMY. I will do my homework during "study period" so I better connect to the bed now- see what I did there?

Will be back soon,
S.

Liver Flushing (Ew.)

March 1, 2013

I can't believe I'm doing this. What the hell have I gotten myself into? It's been around 6 hours since I've got here and I've already had 1 liter of coffee shoved up my anus twice. It's called Coffee Enema.

Okay, before you start to wonder let me come straight to the point. No, this is not my idea of Friday Night 'fun'. I'm here to do something called Liver Flushing. If you don't know what that is, go google it. It's worth educating yourself. You gotta starve yourself and eat something called 'espagol'- which by the way tastes worse than shit, while giving yourself Enema like 24-7

The only reason I'm doing this is because I want my skin to get clearer. I might even loose a couple of pounds, which honestly, I could do with right now.

I'm starving. I'm tired. I DO NOT want to have to do enema for the third time at 7 pm! Oh well, just 2 more glorious days to go.

Will be back soon,
S.

One.Step.At.A.Time

February 24, 2013,

I told you I'd give you an update, so, here it is! As you can probably already guess from my tone the party went amazingly. There were some 'BLEH' moments but overall way better than I had expected. I mean I never though I would be able to go to a party knowing only the host and able to mingle around and make conversation with new people. I wouldn't call myself a pro but I'm definetly improving and I'm proud of myself. As the tittle says, I'm doing it One. Step. At. A. Time :)

Here is a list of websites that kind of helped me a bit when I was freaking out before hand. For people like me: Introverted, Shy, and who thinks they're Socially Awkward- please have a look. I want you to know that everything is in your head. Just have good thoughts about how you want things to turn out and things will go fine. Believe me they will.

I'm not gonna blabber anymore because you have the sites.

1) http://www.acquired-tastes.com/2011/08/making-conversation-5-easy-tips-for.html

2) http://www.wikihow.com/Avoid-Being-Socially-Awkward

3) http://www.succeedsocially.com/howtomingleatparties

That should do the trick. Happy Socializing!

Will be back soon,
S.

My Anxieties :/

February 24, 2013

So, remember I told you of a friend's birthday party in the previous post? Well. I had decided to chicken out and not go. I told her on Facebook but she totally insisted that I come. I kind of gave her my word and I'm now going to a party where I know no body but the host.

Oh. My. God. I am having social anxieties. There is basically going to be two groups of people who don't know each other and then there is me. Do I have a problem for feeling this way? Probably not. This is daunting for most people out there. For me, however, this is crucial. This is because I NEED to improve my social skills.

I am going to try and make myself feel better now. What is the worst that can happen? If things don't go smoothly I can always leave early right? Also, why am I afraid of people's judgment? As it is, I don't know anybody there except the host and maybe the hosts parents who might turn up. I just have to be myself.

Breathe. Go for it with a positive attitude! I am going to have a GREAT time mingling with new and interesting people.

I'll give you an update after the party. Alright?

Will be back soon,
S.

The Power (Weakness?) of Introverts

February 21, 2013

I would like to share this video of 'The Power of Introvert'. I watched this video quite a while ago actually. But a conversation I had with my sister just now made me sad all of a sudden as it was about how I am such an 'Introvert' and how that's something of a weakness. I actually feel that way- you know? So I watched the video again.



I kind of feel better now. Oh, and on Sunday, there is a birthday party I'm invited to. It's an old friend's. I'm still contemplating whether I should go or now. I feel I should because I need to socialize more. But then again there's going to be lots of people I don't know. I'll let you know.

Also, I just told my sister and mum of this so-called-blog I have which I'm not showing them. They totally flipped and over reacted. I mean, why can't a person have their privacy? I don't really mind if people half way across the world read this but I do mind if the person next door does. Does this make sense?

Will be back soon,
S.

The Biggest Loser

February 20, 2013

This is going to be a quick post about my new resolution: to lose weight through healthy eating and exercise. Yup, you heard right. Even though I failed miserably the last time I tried, there was one- 3 years ago, that I was successful and became skinny. And then 'Food' and 'Laziness' happened and I bloated and bloated and bloated. I am now a hippo. Yay? Anyways, its high time I do something about my weight issue now. I promise, this time its going to work.

My problem you see, is not only losing weight for beauty purposes- although that is a big big factor! But my problem is that my feet can't support heavy weight so if I don't lose weight now, when I grow old, I won't be able to walk. Gasps!

So, this is the 'rules' that I have to follow:

1) Exercise at least 3 times a week.
- For example, run on the treadmill for 30 minutes

2) Take packed lunch and fruits to school to avoid eating junk food.

3) Try to stop eating unhealthy snacks between meals

4) Drink lots and lots of water

That is what I am going to try and do first. Later, I can add more to the list.

Will be back soon,
S.

JA Stem Innovation

February 20, 2013

Today is the JA Stem Innovation Camp Competition that I was selected to take part in. This competition was held in Triam Udom's Alumni Centre and is sponsored by Blackberry. Before I tell you more about this particular competition, I'm going to fast-forward back 3-4 months before, ok? Laughs. Why am I asking you? You don't really have a choice.

There is this program called Junior Achievement Thailand. It has numerous programs and workshops for schools to take part in. The first program introduced to my school was JA Banks in Action which was sponsored by Bangkok Bank. I joined it as an ECA and happen to be on the winning team in my school. How that happened is kind of a funny story because it was a co-incidence. Anyways, as a result of this glorious win, a group of 4 students including me, were sent to compete with other schools at Bangkok Bank's headquarter. We had to make a presentation regarding an answer to a question (I forgot what I said but I remember I made a fool out of myself) as well as play a simulation game regarding interest rates.

So, because of our stupidity of deciding not to prepare for this competition we outright lost the game. Yay. Laughs.

Okay, back to today's competition.

There were around 8 people from my school. The competition started at 8 am and lasted until 9 pm. I know right?! That's insane! I was like so tired. Anyways, when we first got there, we did ice-breaking activities. It was extremely stupid and ridiculous. I'll give you one example: singing 'Hello hello hello...how are you too? ...and you and you and you' while doing weird motions towards random strangers. MATURITY anybody?!

Laughs.

The intellectually stimulating part, never the less, came later. We were put into groups of 6 with students from other schools and had to make a power point presentation and business concepts regarding 'How can the Ministry of Education partner up with Blackberry (They're the sponsors) to encourage students to take STEM subjects (Science, Technology, Engineering, Math)'. After the presentation, we were interviewed by a panel of judges based on our concept.

What else was there? Well, I got to know some people: a couple students from TCIS, one from Saint Joseph Bangna, as well as an Indian-Sikh student from RIS. And there was food! Breakfast, Coffee, Lunch, and Dinner! But the food wasn't that great though.

Okay. The most important information saved for the last. The winning team gets a Blackberry.

I CURRENTLY DON'T HAVE A BLACKBERRY!

This honestly sucks. It's not like I want the phone, I just want the certificate for my CV! Plus the judges were saying stuff like 'Everybody here is a winner', 'It was a tough decision', 'We were impressed by ALL groups', and other cliche sayings. It just made me more frustrated!

Oh well, at least I will have the certificate of participation which will be handed out to me in my school's assembly. And you know what they say: It doesn't matter if you win or lose. All that matters is that you participate.

Will be back soon,
S.

Lurking around "The Mall"

February 19, 2013

I am currently siting in the Food Court of a mall near my school. This has become like a usual routine for me while my sister has ECAs at school. (That's Extra Curricular Activities by the way). I can't explain just how annoying and awkward this feels. I'm just sitting at either Food Court, McDonalds, Starbucks, or walking around like an idiot wasting money on useless things.

Yet every time I vow to myself that I won't come here alone it just doesn't seem to take effect. I guess because lately my sister has gone into FULL SPORTS MODE.

Anyways, I am not complaining. I actually did do quite a bit of work in the library today while waiting and just decided to come and wait here for a bit. My mum is late today as well. Again, I am not complaining. It's part of life isn't it?

Gosh. What has gotten into me right now?

So, while waiting, I decided to blog. It has become like a weird addiction now. When I first started, I never thought I would enjoy it this much. The more I post, the more likely someone I know will read this. And that scares me. It really does. But I guess sometimes you cant help it. Especially me, I can't let what people think affect me that much.

Something has really gotten into me, hasn't it? (Chuckles)

Will be back soon,
S.

Two faced people & Exams

February 18, 2013

This is going to be short and sweet.

Do you know people who act like your friends and hang out with you when they have no body else? Then when their friends are around they just totally forget about you and even ignore you on purpose? And when you ask them to hang out with you, say, sit with you, they give you an effed up look? Well. I feel hate such two faced people.

Okay that was defiantly short but not sweet. On a more positive note, this is like a reminder to myself. A reminder to not rely on people as much and not to care as much. I know its easier said than done but I shall try.

Since I'm already in the mood now, I'll do a little update. I'm dropping Piano and Mandarin Classes for a while to give me more time to revise for my AS Exams. I need to do well this time and I promise to study- especially the Exam Timetable is crazy this year! It makes all my exams over within a week of like a 2 month session! Like seriously?

Economics	Math	History
13th May	7th May	23rd May
21st May	22nd May

I know the table looks hideous, but well, the whole exam is hideous- so yeah. Actually, it's hideous because I'm horrible at computers. I think I already mentioned that, right?

Will be back soon,

S.

My Prestige Article!

February 17, 2013

They say 'A picture is worth a 1000 words', don't they? Well here you go:

Winks. By the way, you might have to click on the little icon or whatever shows us. I'm not that great with computers!

Will be back soon,

S.

Work Experience

February 16, 2013

This is something totally unrelated to my day. But I feel the need to blog about it. I mean, it's a shame I didn't blog about it while it was happening. Oh well. As the tittle gives it away, this post is going to be about my experiences during work experiences. Or, "internship" to sound sophisticated!

Since I'm getting on a time machine back to July 2012, this is not going to be specific. I apologize. Wait. Why am I apologizing? Ummm yeah, it's going to be one large summary rather than specific experiences because I don't think I have the time or patience.

I had the opportunity to intern at Media Expertise International. I and another kid from my class was selected but he totally ditched after a week and another girl replaced him. Yup. That's a long story. I might tell you that later!

Anyways, we were supposed to intern for Harpers Bazaar Magazine but because it was all in Thai we moved to Prestige Magazine. There are about 8 magazines under this company but Prestige is the only English one.

What did we do there, people may ask? Well. Not make coffee! This was something my little sister kept on teasing me about. We made photocopies though. We did random and stupid things: watching movies, eating 7-11 junk in the corner, and what not! We even had a nickname for one of the worker: style.com Plus, we went on an interview with an upcoming singer Dara Loy. The messed up thing was that she was 25 but we looked older than her!

I have one story to tell. We were also made to go pay some bills at a studio and had to go by motorbike to avoid traffic. We got lost and had to walk around asking people for the way until we finally found the place. That was kind of like an epic adventure!

The most important thing that we did there, however, was write an article that was featured in the September issue of the magazine! The Spa and Savor Column that we contributed too were also featured! It felt awesome seeing my name on the magazine!

Needless to say, this was an amazing experience for me. I learnt so much in 5 weeks! I feel so fortunate that I've gotten this chance as I realize not everybody does.

The end.

No wait. It's not the end! I haven't gotten my letter of recommendation yet! That's another long story. I guess I need another post regarding this! We'll see.

Will be back soon,
S.

Valentines Shmurr

February 13, 2013

This blogging thing is getting real addictive. I guess that's a good thing right? I'm kind of obsessed with it now and just jazzed the site up a bit today. Notice the pink background, the Google Translator tab, the profile picture and info, and the search engine! I've also tried to add a countdown clock but couldn't figure out how to do it.

Valentine Days tomorrow. I know I already blogged a little bit about Valentines Day but I feel the need to blog again.

Here's IISuperwomanII's video about how annoying Valentines Day is.



Apart from that, this Valentines (or maybe a couple of days after), I'm going to ask a guy I kind of like out. Fingers crossed on this one. But its the 21st Century, why can't a girl ask a guy out? Also, if it doesn't work out I have nothing to lose. I mean, what's the worst that can happen- I get rejected and things become awkward. Well, just for a couple of more months until we're done with Year 12.

Will it be a happy Valentines Week, sad, or normal?

Will be back soon,
S.

Half Term Break

February 15, 2013

As I have mentioned previously, or have I? We shall never know! Okay that was seriously lame. I will be having the so called 'half term break' soon. Most schools have like a week off during half term break but our school only has 5 days. Not too bad? Well, think again, cause that includes 2 days of the weekend and 1 day of Thai public holiday. I'll do the math for you. That leaves us with just 2 days of actually school leave. On top of that we are bombarded with work to do. This just sucks.

But on a more positive note, all I gotta do is cram like crazy for my exams and this time next year I'll be preparing for University: a new more fun chapter in my life, hopefully. Be Optimistic. Be Positive.

This was a fairly short post.

Will be back soon,
S.

Lying in Bed :(

February 11, 2013

As the tittle quite explicitly says so, I'm lying in bed as I can't go to sleep. Then again it's only 8.49 right now so I figured I'd blog.

It's almost Valentines day. For all single people out there, this must suck. I feel you. Laughs. Especially when 'couple and 'people in love' act so sappy and annoying around you. Doesn't it make you feel that if you don't have a boyfriend or girlfriend then life is not worth living? It's ridiculous.

Anyways, moving on. In my previous post regarding university, I mentioned I will explain my chosen major. So here it goes:

For a whole now, my parents, or more so, my mother, has been convincing me to do Economics and Finance at university. Although I don't mind studying Economics and Finance, my heart was always set on something like Politics or International Relations. And I would have done what I wanted to do. However, what my mum (and dad and internet) had to say did actually make more sense.

Here are the reasons why I am choosing to read Economics and Finance at University:

1. With this major, there will be more job opportunities. I could work in Banks, Multinationals, the Public Sector, Ngo's, etc. The sky is the limit. I could also write about the economy. Laughs again. I could also go into investment as I would have learnt all the skills necessary for making smart choices.

2. If I choose to do International Relations, my only option is to work in the Embassy or Government. For working in the government, I would need to be fluent in Thai, which I am not, so that is out of the question. As for the embassy option, it takes a while to rise up the rank. To have more opportunities like working in the UN, I would have need to do Masters because a Bachelors degree is not enough.

3. That brings me to my next point.I can always do Masters in International Relations, can't I? And that would be impressive.

That's it for today people.

Will be back soon,
S.

Chinese New Year

February 10, 2013

It's very unusual for me to have two blog posts in one day but I forgot to say Happy Chinese New Year 2013. It'll be a short one though.

I'll say it properly in Mandarin. Or type. 恭喜发财 or 新年快乐。The first one is Gong Xi Fa Cai which I think means like may you earn a fortune or something along the lines of that. The second one is Xin Nian Kuai Le which means Happy New Year. Enough with the Mandarin lessons. Laughs.

So it's now the year of snakes. Apparently I was told something horrible happens during the year of snakes because snakes are known to be poisonous. Don't believe me? Well here comes the creepy part. The last time it was the year of the snake, there was 9/11. And the Wall Street Crash also happened during the year of the snake in 1929.

I happen to be born in the year of the rats. Since rats and snakes live side by side, I gotta be extra careful this year. Okay. Enough with this-whatever this is.

Anyways, this Chinese New Year I might go to China Town because there's like street food and shows. They closed the whole road and since I live near by, I figured, why not?

I'll let you know how it is. Until then, take care.

Will be back soon,
S.

University Stress and All That!

February 10, 2013

Okay, so incase you guys haven't figured out yet, I'm almost going to graduate high school. Well, maybe not almost. It's like a year and a half but I've still gotta think about university haven't I?

Speaking about universities, it's SOOO STRESSFUL like thinking about where to apply to. It's not just the course and country you gotta figure out but also the fees and finances. To all others in the same position, I sympathize with you.

Ever since I was young, I always knew I wanted to go abroad to study: the UK to be specific. Now that the time has come, I'm not too sure anymore. The costs are INSANE. I repeat, INSANE and there are like very few scholarships or loans for international students which just sucks.

I'm just going to try my very best in hunting down the very few scholarships that are available or try to figure something out. If not, I'm just going to take it as my luck and apply to the University of Nottingham's campus located in Malaysia.

Let me tell you a bit about luck and all that. I know some people think its stupid, but I really believe in something call luck and destiny. I'm not going to go crazy about it over here. All I'm going to say here is I will accept how ever things turn out, take it as my luck, and not feel upset about it. Cause you know what they say, if it's meant to be, it's meant to be.

About the campus in Malaysia, it is really not a bad option at all. In fact, it's a really good option.

1. It's well known for Economics and Finance, which is what I'm interested in. (It's a long story which I will mention some other time!)

2. The degree I get won't say I studied in the Malaysian campus. It will just say University of Nottingham. And that's like a really good University, so yeah.

3. I can spend a semester or a year in the UK. Or, even transfer after one year. The exchange program will enable me to pay Malaysian fees which is good. The transfer option, well, we'll see how things go.

4. I wouldn't have to worry about finances because it's affordable. By going to the UK, I would have to work to contribute to the costs. That would just make me stressed out and not able to enjoy my University experience fully.

5. There are a lot of Asians in the Malaysian campus, which is good. I will be able to mingle with them and there wouldn't be any problems of discrimination. I will also get contacts in Asia which is great with the ASEAN opening up.

6. I wouldn't have to cook and clean. Laughs. Not that good of a reason. Nope, who am I kidding, it's an extremely good reason.

7. Last but not least, I can come home as often as I want. I won't feel lonely. Home sweet home. I also have relatives there to help me out incase of an emergency.

So there it is. My list of reasons. I'm still not a 100% convinced though. Let's see. Till then, whatever.

Will be back soon,
S.

Stop being a loner!

February 1, 2013

Hello! It has been a while, hasn't it? Happy February! (Gosh, I'm so lame). Anyways, I've skipped school again today so that it why I have the time to blog. I should just take a day off every week to blog, shouldn't I? Laughs. I took the day off because the Sixth Form at my school went on a Residential but I didn't go because I didn't feel like it. I would rather just sit home and chill.

Uhmm, well, while I was sitting at home, I made plans with a long-lost friend of mine to meet up next week. I'm kind of excited because I haven't seen her in like 5 years or so! It's sad how all my friends from my old school have drifted apart because we used to be SO CLOSE. Like seriously, we used to have the most amazing times! I don't want to sit here and look back at the past though. I have to look forward. That's my February Resolution. (Is there such a thing? Well there is now). I'm going to try and get in touch with my old friends and at the same time try and make new ones. What I mean to say is, I'm going to put myself in social situations even though I don't feel like it.

Other than that, I've been reading a new book: The last thousand days of the British Empire. My mom bought it for me from Sri Lanka as books there a really cheap. She knows me too well. The book is pretty good but I'm not going to do a book review because I can't be bothered to. If you're interested, you have Google.

That's basically my day today. I have dentist tomorrow and a last session of Mandarin class because the teacher is going to be away for a while. I might also consider going to the morning get together at my cousin's. Oh wait. I am going because that's my new resolution.

Wow. I've just realized, this blog is getting shorter and shorter. Never mind, next time, I will only blog if I have something worth while to say. I promise.

Will be back soon,
S.

Things that annoy me :/

January 21, 2013

Hello again folks. (Why do I pretend that someone is actually reading this?) Today is Monday but I skipped school today and so it was like a long weekend for me. Don't get the wrong idea okay? I do not usually skip school. In fact I didn't want to skip school because believe it or not I actually want to do well in my A-Level Exams.

But. But. Period Cramps. DJGLKJDPOSDGJSDFMDVLCVMJWEIFWOF.

Wait. Don't leave yet! As much as Period Cramps are annoying (Effin' Annoying), I'm not going to go on one of those random and crazy rants. That's because its a fact of life and it wont go away so why make such a huge deal about it right?

So I sat home all day today watching YouTube videos and basically wasting precious time. And then at around 3.30 I left for my Piano Lessons. Just to let you know, I'm currently preparing for my Trinity Grade 7 Piano Exam which I will probably take in November this year.

Instead of boring you with details about the videos I watched or about my very interesting journey to Piano class, (By the way, it was very interesting. My sister, who weighs about 50 kgs or so, SAT on me the whole way because there were huge cartons of bed sheets in the backseat. I literally could smell the sweat on her back. It was disgusting). But, I am going to blog about something totally unrelated to my day.

This is actually fast forwarding to 26 January, 2013. I just got home from Mandarin lessons and it took me ONE EFFIN HOUR TO GET HOME.I am frustrated and feel like exploding. I think I should point out that it usually takes me 5 minutes. Also, I saw a big yellow bus and a bright pink taxi U-turn in the MIDDLE OF THE ROAD. Uhmm, and what else did I see that is perfectly normal (apparently) in Thailand. There was this car parked in the middle of the lane causing even MORE TRAFFIC. So, I finally decided to get down and walk back home. It was only about 100 meters. And guess what? I had to walk on the EFFIN ROAD because people were SELLING FOOD ON THE PAVEMENT.

Welcome to Thailand, my friend. Amazing Thailand indeed.

Will be back soon,
S.

A Lazy Saturday

January 19, 2013

Here I am again. Its a Saturday. Nothing special going on today. But I guess in the initial posts I want to do regular updates just so this blog wont die like my previous one. I don't even remember when I started that blog you know! I just randomly typed my email into Google and found my supposedly non-existant blog about piano notes. I had a good laugh.

That got me thinking, though. In about 10 years time when I read this blog, I would probably laugh even harder! I would be 27 or so by then. Gosh that's old!

'So, hello future me! I hope you're enjoying life!'

Laughs.

Anyways, I'm going to tell you a bit about myself and family since I didn't get a chance to do that in yesterday's post. The thing is that I'm limited in what I can and can't say since this blog is public. I mean, I would get arrested if I said some of the things that are on my mind!

But jokes aside, I'm a 17 year old girl living in Bangkok, Thailand. I love food. I love reading. I love shopping (lately for make-up). I also love history. What else do I love? Uhmm..I love travelling. Wow. How did I forget that? I actually love travelling more than food!

I also hate things. I hate not getting enough sleep. I hate annoying people. (A bit vague I know). I hate slow Internet. I hate physics.

As for my family, we are just like every other family. There's my Dad and Mom- both of whom go to work, and then there's my incredibly cute sister whom I love to hate (I hope you know what I mean!) and then there's me.

Back to today though. I had mandarin lessons in the afternoon. I honestly can't be bothered to continue my lessons anymore but then again no body is forcing me to. It was on my insistence actually that my parents agreed to send me to mandarin classes. I also took IGCSE mandarin and HSK Level 3 out of my own insistence. It would be a bit of a shame to quit now, wouldn't it? But you know whats weird? I am now considering going to HKU next year and one of their requirements is to have a language at IGCSE apart from English. If I hadn't taken mandarin, I would not even been able to apply. Is this destiny or what?

Anyways, after class I went for dinner + dessert with my family followed by some book shopping. As I said before, its a boring Saturday. Nothing special today.

Will be back soon,
S.
                                                                                                                                                         

My Blog is Born

January 18, 2013

I always wanted to start a blog. I was always encouraged to start a blog. I’m passionate about writing and I’m good at it. Wait let me re-phrase: I express myself better in words than in real life. (See what I did there? Smiles.)

 So here it is, my very own ‘blog’. It is nothing but a fancier version of a diary though. It is basically  for adults (or 'so called adults’) who find keeping a diary a bit of a nuisance. I mean, picture a 17 year old girl writing (with a pink fluffy pen that sings) in a diary (the one that has a lock on it) while drawing hearts all over the page and humming to Justin Bieber’s latest song (ew). One word: No. Just No.

Okay, I admit I was exaggerating a bit (or using a hyperbole- useful piece of knowledge for you today, eh?). Oh, and in case you haven’t realized just yet, that 17 year old girl I was talking about is none other than myself.

Anyways, before I plucked up the courage to start one, which by the way is in my Bucket List, I kept on thinking of what kind of blog I wanted to start. A travel blog like the one I came across when I was vacationing in Vientiane during the New Year holidays ? Or a fashion blog (which I know I’m in NO WAY  shape or form capable of) like one of the person I follow on Instagram has? How about a blog about dreams that I remember reading somewhere. I just did not know. And I almost gave up on one  until today.

I don’t want to bore any body reading this. But then again, this is not written with the intention of being read. I’m just going to go ahead and tell the story of how my blog came to life. If you don’t like it, go ahead and press the red cross on the top right corner of the screen (or the top left corner if you’re using a Mac- you lucky person!). This is because somebody told me something today that I probably wont ever forget: Just be yourself. That is how you will attract like-minded people and people who will like you for you.

So back to my story. While I was sitting at the Gurdwara today reading ‘The Perks of Being a Wallflower’, I felt as if the book was written with me in my mind. Like somehow ‘God’ sent that book to me to show me that I am not alone and to show me that there are people like me out there. If you haven’t read the book, I’ll go for brief similarities between the main character, Charlie, and myself.

-Quiet and doesn’t have too many friends.

-Loves to write. Introverted.

-Wallflower.

 I don’t want to tell some sort of sob story about myself because there are people in a far worse situation than I am in. All I want to say is that walking in a midst of a crowed in the Langar Hall, I felt much like a loner. Wait, let me rephrase again. Felt reserved and restricted. I thought to myself, if I cant find a way to connect with these people, maybe I can find a way to connect with people thousands of miles away from me. Whether they actually read it or not is besides the point. But even if I can convey this message below to just one person I would already be happy.

-If you feel this way. If you are unpopular in high school. If you feel like you don’t fit in with social norms. You are not alone. You don’t have to feel ashamed or sorry about it because it is perfectly normal and trust that things would get better.

Just to clarify, this is not some kind of depressing blog about life. That part of me just happened to inspire the idea of a blog- that’s all. What I’m going to write in here is just random stuff from my daily life. Maybe even of my travels or experiences of going for a liver-flushing detox in March (I would skip that part if I were you!).

Will be back soon,
S.